leaning into the unknown

The unknown has always been incredibly terrifying to me, but she’s not going anywhere. I’m learning that in life nothing is entirely certain, so we have to do what we can with what we have at our disposal. I feel that really focusing in on this topic has helped me with my mindfulness when it comes to my anxiety. This awareness revealed that the uncertainty I personally face feels like a loss of control, which I think as humans we constantly want wherever we can find it. I’ve put so much pressure on future unknown things, which ultimately leads to making some things that don’t need to be big deals into the biggest of deals. This kind of catastrophic future thinking is self-inflicted and has prevented me from appreciating whatever moment I was in.

The solution to this anxiety for me lies in a very aware attempt to remain present. The goal is to simply have fun with what you have where you are, cause literally who fucking knows what the next week or ten minutes of your life can hold. It’s a reminder to be present due to the fact you can’t technically future-think and catastrophize when remaining in this more neutral position. I feel the more time I’ve spent trying to analyze my thoughts rather than solve every thought has made me want to slow down more and not be so rash, which has helped me significantly. The acceptance for me ultimately comes from being as present wherever I am and slowing down whatever scenario I could be catastrophizing. Embrace where you are now, and stay as present as possible, because who doesn't love a little mystery.

xo