ur twenties are weird

At 24, I constantly feel like I'm not where I'm supposed to be, and these aren’t just 20something feelings. I’m currently writing this sitting next to my 19 year old lovely wonderful beautiful cousin and she feels the exact same way stating she “always feels a constant rush and sense of urgency” to be further in life.

These feelings often stem from the unrealistic young success stories I see all over social media. I even find myself jokingly telling friends that I wish I was a "nepo baby" because it seems like it would make life so much easier. I don’t hold my friends to these expectations but I'm aware that many of them feel the same way. It’s led to us being far too hard on ourselves. This pressure isn't just about career paths; it’s an overarching feeling that we should be further along in every aspect of our lives—be it skinnier, taller, stronger, or "hotter." It’s an exhausting cycle of holding myself to unattainable standards, something I'm well aware of and feel like I write about too much.

I want to get better at this, to hold myself accountable for the fact that I'm only hurting myself by trying to live up to these high standards. The truth is, we won’t always feel like the best version of ourselves—the skinniest, strongest, or hottest—and that's okay!!!!

Even with this awareness, there's a stubborn part of me that still feels the need to measure up, as if living in a world of high expectations is the only way to prove my worth. It’s an exhausting cycle—knowing better, but not always doing better. Currently I’m trying to figure out how to break this mf-ing cycle cause i’m exhausted by it. I feel I’ve had better moments and I can recall exactly where and when they were when I felt I had escaped the inner critic. Unfortunately she’s been a little loud the past couple of days. Sometimes knowing you aren’t alone with these feelings is the comfort you need. So with that being said… if you find yourself feeling similarly, (in the LEAST cheesy way possible) you aren’t alone and you’re gonna be okay bbg. Do what you can to enjoy where you are and know you’ll ultimately end up exactly where you’re supposed 2b<3 (yelling this at myself as well)

xo